Awareness (noun): Concern about and well-informed interest in a particular situation or development I’ve been thinking about what to do for Baby Loss Awareness Week 2020. Last year (was it really only a year ago?), I outed myself on Facebook …
A Blessing or a Curse?
Superstition (noun): A widely held but irrational belief in supernatural influences Has this time and experience been a blessing or a curse? I’ve been wondering about this for a while now and my view oscillates. At first, I thought about …
Good Vibes Only, Bro
Law of Attraction (new thought philosophy): The belief that positive or negative thoughts bring positive or negative experiences into a person’s life The first thing that dies, is your baby. The next is hope. You lose track of the things …
Easier Said Than Run
Stamina (noun): The ability to sustain prolonged physical or mental effort If you asked me whether I’d prefer to run 10 kilometres, or to run one 5 minute kilometre, I would opt for the first one (I just hope James …
I’m Sorry For Your Loss
Sorry (adjective): Feeling sad or distressed through sympathy with someone else’s misfortune I’ve been in your shoes too, you know. I’ve been opposite a loss mum, who’s awaiting a response and I’ve paused, thought “I don’t know what to say!” …
Rain on the Parade
Sayings (noun): Short, pithy, commonly known expressions which generally offer advice or wisdom i) Misery loves company: People who are unhappy may get some consolation from knowing that others are unhappy too I grab all of my definitions for the …
Perfect
Content (adjective): In a state of peaceful happiness I’m slowly figuring out why this hurts so much. There are the obvious things to be sad about: losing another child, not being a mum, the fear and uncertainty of what’s to …
Little Stars
Star (verb): Of a film, play or other show: to have someone as a principal performer I’ve never been one of those people who’s said “being a mum is all I’ve ever wanted”. I’ve never even been one to describe myself as …
I Hate (the EPA)U
Trauma (noun): A deeply distressing or disturbing experience URGH. I had to return to the Early Pregnancy Assessment Unit (EPAU) today. Even though: I’m not pregnant I have so many traumatic memories of the place It’s a couple of hundred …
My Old Self
Future (noun): Time regarded as still to come She sits in a tea shop, tucked away in a corner. Baklava on a plate, book in her lap. I walk in, face masked, heart shielded. She glances up, smiles. I look …