Believe (verb): Accept that something is true, especially without proof I woke up today, with a word in my head: Believe I have a difficult relationship with HOPE, which I’ve blogged about previously. After three pregnancy losses, I just don’t …
Past, Present, Future, Always
* This blog is for Charlie, on her 2nd birthday. Gone, but not forgotten * Carry (verb): Support the weight of It’s a new calendar year and a new bruth: I hate not being able to say “she died last …
Hipster W@nker
Hipster (noun): A person who follows the latest trends and fashions, especially those regarded as being outside the cultural mainstream I really enjoyed my late 20’s, slipping into my 30’s. I used to be someone quite unrecognisable from this recurrent …
What To Say
Delicate (adjective): Fine or precise in action or execution A fellow loss mum wrote an article for Baby Loss Awareness Week, it was a “what not to say” to a bereaved mother. I thought it was spot on. But, as …
An Open Letter
Inexplicable (adjective): Unable to be explained or accounted for Dear several good people, On my stronger days, I tell myself that you surprised me. On gentle days, I ponder how you disappointed me. On the harshest ones, I feel you …
Four Trying Years
Quadrennium (noun): A specified period of four years This new month marks four years of us trying for a baby. Four trying years. Trying for years. F-O-U-R Y-E-A-R-S 80% of our first TTC lustrum 48 months 208 weeks 1461 days …
Mondays
Blue Monday (noun): A Monday that is depressing or trying especially because of the return to work and routine after a weekend I always struggle with grief-filled Mondays, my counsellor suggested that it was because Summer died on a Monday, but …
Two Steps Forwards
Path (noun): The course or direction in which a person is moving This year I said I wanted to move forward. Given that we are already one-third of the way through this year (seriously, how did that happen?!), now seems …
Head Vs. Heart
Mind over matter (phrase): The use of willpower to overcome problems My Head My Heart It’s time to get over it How? It’s time to move forward How? It’s time to stop thinking about it How? Time. Just give it …