Déjà vu (noun): A feeling of having already experienced the present situation I came on here to write a blog called “Mondays” and it turns out, I’ve already written one here. Oops. I don’t know what it is about Mondays, …
Words of Affirmation
Believe (verb): Accept that something is true, especially without proof I woke up today, with a word in my head: Believe I have a difficult relationship with HOPE, which I’ve blogged about previously. After three pregnancy losses, I just don’t …
Birth Flowers
Unrequited love (phrase): A love that can’t be acted upon or is not openly reciprocated It was our 10 year wedding anniversary last week and James booked us a trip to the Netherlands to cycle the tulip fields, seeing as …
Past, Present, Future, Always
* This blog is for Charlie, on her 2nd birthday. Gone, but not forgotten * Carry (verb): Support the weight of It’s a new calendar year and a new bruth: I hate not being able to say “she died last …
What To Say
Delicate (adjective): Fine or precise in action or execution A fellow loss mum wrote an article for Baby Loss Awareness Week, it was a “what not to say” to a bereaved mother. I thought it was spot on. But, as …
Heavy
Aware (adjective): Having or showing realisation, perception, or knowledge Baby Loss Awareness Week (9th – 15 October) rolls around again, it starts tomorrow. And unlike last year, it’s not something I’m planning to make a push for, because it feels …
An Open Letter
Inexplicable (adjective): Unable to be explained or accounted for Dear several good people, On my stronger days, I tell myself that you surprised me. On gentle days, I ponder how you disappointed me. On the harshest ones, I feel you …
Permanent
Normal (adjective): Ordinary or usual; as would be expected Hi team, it’s been a while. Probably my longest stint without blogging. It’s because I’ve been Sarah Michelle Gellar-ing (I just re-read that blog from February and it’s spot on), I …
Four Trying Years
Quadrennium (noun): A specified period of four years This new month marks four years of us trying for a baby. Four trying years. Trying for years. F-O-U-R Y-E-A-R-S 80% of our first TTC lustrum 48 months 208 weeks 1461 days …
Who’s Winning?
Win (noun): A successful result in a contest, conflict, bet, or other endeavour; a victory I’ve blogged about life being on hold and feeling left behind, but there’s another reason why I’m unable to move forwards, it’s because I don’t …