* This blog is for Charlie, on her 2nd birthday. Gone, but not forgotten * Carry (verb): Support the weight of It’s a new calendar year and a new bruth: I hate not being able to say “she died last …
What To Say
Delicate (adjective): Fine or precise in action or execution A fellow loss mum wrote an article for Baby Loss Awareness Week, it was a “what not to say” to a bereaved mother. I thought it was spot on. But, as …
Heavy
Aware (adjective): Having or showing realisation, perception, or knowledge Baby Loss Awareness Week (9th – 15 October) rolls around again, it starts tomorrow. And unlike last year, it’s not something I’m planning to make a push for, because it feels …
An Open Letter
Inexplicable (adjective): Unable to be explained or accounted for Dear several good people, On my stronger days, I tell myself that you surprised me. On gentle days, I ponder how you disappointed me. On the harshest ones, I feel you …
Permanent
Normal (adjective): Ordinary or usual; as would be expected Hi team, it’s been a while. Probably my longest stint without blogging. It’s because I’ve been Sarah Michelle Gellar-ing (I just re-read that blog from February and it’s spot on), I …
Four Trying Years
Quadrennium (noun): A specified period of four years This new month marks four years of us trying for a baby. Four trying years. Trying for years. F-O-U-R Y-E-A-R-S 80% of our first TTC lustrum 48 months 208 weeks 1461 days …
Who’s Winning?
Win (noun): A successful result in a contest, conflict, bet, or other endeavour; a victory I’ve blogged about life being on hold and feeling left behind, but there’s another reason why I’m unable to move forwards, it’s because I don’t …
The Broken Records
Broken Record (noun): Used to refer to a person’s constant and annoying repetition of a particular statement or opinion It’s “fascinating” how so many loss mums, seem to experience such similar feelings at the same time. There are a few …
Imposter Syndrome
Fraud (noun): A person who deceives others, typically by unjustifiably claiming or being credited with accomplishments or qualities I’m sure I’ve mentioned previously, that it took me forever to seek out the baby loss community; other like-minded women, who’ve been …
The A to Z of Baby Loss
Words (song lyrics, Bee Gees): It’s only words and words are all I have There are no words? Yeah there are, lots of them. Lots of existing ones and lots of new ones popping up, all the time, too. So …